exams

ah, exams...

the refreshing kick start to a much needed break after every semester of nearly everything. whether you're in school, college, uni... the end of exams spells the end of a semester.. we all know what that means ;)

HOLIDAYS!!

and i for one can't WAIT for my holidays to start.

but then again my exams are yet to begin.

and here's the toughest part...

STUDYING FOR YOUR EXAMS

here are a couple tips i picked up:

1. study at least four days before your exam. 
2. recite everything you've studied as often as possible (so that it sticks in your mind)
3. it helps to talk to yourself when you study
4. take a break at the end of almost every chapter (not including the unbelievably short ones)
5. remember to come back to study after the break
6. pace yourself!
7. if you're stuck on a topic that doesn't seem to sink in, skip it and move on. better to cover more ground.
8. if you're getting two things (e.g. subtopics, chapters, advantages-disadvantages, etc.) mixed up, try learning one in one room, and the other in ANOTHER room. it works for me :)
9. studies show that if you walk around, it'll be easier for you to memorize stuff
10. never give up!

it's not that hard, y'know. studying i mean. it's just input-ing some information into that big empty brain of yours and working at it to keep it there. that's all ;) 

it may be harder than it sounds, but trust me.. with some elbow grease, you'll be memorizing stuff in a SNAP! 

grow up, slim down

reading back on my blog, reflecting on my life, i've realized.

i have to grow up.

truth is, i'm a kid at heart. a big one. i don't phrase my sentences "sophisticatedly", i dress so childishly, i even sound childish.

i'm somewhat ashamed of what i am. Seeing everyone blossom into such beautiful young adults makes me feel. sort of. left behind?

it's not that i haven't tried growing up. i mean, i've definitely tried dressing up, and talking monotonously  maturely. and acting less like a big goof. but it just didn't feel right. i didn't feel... me. i felt like i morphed into this whole other person, like a wax shell engulfed my entire being. like all the sounds i'm hearing were heard with different ears. all sights seen with different eyes. all words spoken with different lips.

i hate feeling like that. and people tell me to "grow up". to be a "big girl now". sometimes, they don't even have to say anything. the exude this totally obvious  vibe and it is utterly unsettling. it radiates through my entire being, my mind goes into a spin. i feel like i have to jump into a time machine and come back as a totally older "me" just to fit in.

well, in my defense:

• i love wearing elastic shorts. they make my tummy feel like its being hugged.
• i love eating junk food. who doesn't?
• i know my blubbery tummy is a "problem" and i should exercise more, but hey. i'm trying okay?
• i know i've gained a few pounds, but... i'm fat, you're ugly. and i can diet.

am i fat?
my BMI seems fine
i weigh 54 kilos. that's only 4 kilos gained.
i'm definitely taller than 160 centimetres.
and
... my dresses fit better now, actually.

doesn't my height

and my pale skin

make up for my "fatness"?

looks like

it's back to

the gym.

oh! so clueless

this post says it all.
sometimes, people can be so clueless.
what does that get you?

i think you can tell.

oh! so slow

so my friends are all crazy over this game called "League of Legends" or LoL. so SOMEHOW MAGICALLY, LoL appeared in my com. and i wonder what MAGICAL BEING must have put it there.

anyway, so i gave in and decided to try it. but then the server was down yesterday and bla bla bla, so i couldn't try it until now.

i tried to start it, but it had to patch something, sooooo i clicked "update LoL".

it's still loading

and it's eating my bandwith, so i can't watch youtube, i can't play cityville on facebook, i can't view photos on facebook, and the icons on my blogger post are gone! and there's trouble autosaving drafts and what not.

ugh!

i hate slow internet!

i think i can WALK faster than the internet.

this LoL game better be worth it.

it's been fifteen minutes now and it's still stuck at 34%...

i hope it's worth it D:

test week

watch out, it's here to get'cha!

TEST WEEK!



we are in the midst of it...

so far not good :( 

i hope to survive this week and excel

into your gravity

i want to:

1. go to the beach
2. finish all my tests and have an extremely fun day out
3. laugh freely, without worrying about anything
4. not worry
5. learn accounting -.-
6. be strong
7. watch a movie with friends
8. taste the buttery goodness of popcorn and soda again
9. paint someone's nails 
10. gossip! without being judged, no lies, no "pass-the-message" game, nothing to worry about. just pure, girl-to-girl talk.

i'm also craving a waffle

L.O.V.E.

today was NOT a good day.

it even started out bad!
it was apparently "that time" of the month again. man, i almost forgot what cramps felt like. guys of the world, hear this...

you are lucky you don't go through this
you are lucky you don't have to worry
you are lucky you don't get moodswings
you are lucky you can drink whatever you want, eat whatever you want, without having any after effects
you are lucky you can taste sweet freedom every month, unlike us girls. it's like added stress!

so treat your girl right
she deserves it
no matter how big a bother she is
love her
and if you have to let her go,
let her down gently.
make sure she's ok afterwards.
heal her when she's wounded.

and if you don't want to,

save everyone the trouble

and don't take on obligations

that you cannot fulfill

a relationship is not a chore

it's beautiful

and should be treated

with respect

and girls love guys who respect them. who wouldn't? :) 

cheers to love.

whether you're in love,

or just fell out of it,

or still waiting for it to pop up and surprise you,

here's to love.

this or that?

it's just one of those times where you look at the book, flip confidently through the pages and feel

"i know this... and this... and especially this..."

but you're too lazy to recite the whole thing to yourself

and in the end, you feel half prepared.

so what do i do? 

don't tell me you've never felt lazy before

i know this

do i?

hmm... 

but i'm too tired...

and i've gone through it a bazillion times

i know this...

do i?

oh! so tired

i've gone through everything (well, minus about 10% of confusing boring stuff) and i think i'm ready

i think.

i just hope it doesn't float away by tomorrow. it always does. i'm gonna take a short break, and go through everything again. 

i know my last few posts were titled "oh! so (something something)" it was to remember my old blog. but then again, why should i remember it? it didn't do me much good. i think i'll think of normal-er titles now.

the "oh! so" thing is kinda lame anyway. :(

who knows? maybe it'll pop up again from time to time. 

just gotta read my blog to see then. and no, this is not a tactic to get you to read my blog...

or is it?

whatever,

i'll be enjoying my break now. i've got about two minutes of it left.

oh! so... BREAK TIME! :D

ok, yes... it's break time. i hereby dub it so

:D

i have half a chapter to go, which is about two pages? yeah. :S and then there's that "going through everything" thing again. :(

here's my horrible schedule

•  8/6 - Construction Technology 1 Progress test 2
• 13/6 - English Progress test 2
• 15/6 - Building Services Progress test 2
• 17/6 - Principles of Accounting Progress test 2 (i failed progress test 1 pretty badly)

so far, i'm not that stressed. it's just the accounting that's killing me. i try so hard, and i don't get even a pass. my course mates hardly even try in class, and they pass. :( if any of you are reading this, 

GIVE ME YOUR BRAINSSS! 

I WANT TO BE SMART LIKE YOU TOO!

D: i don't know what IS it with accounts, it just doesn't click. i mean, i get it, and just when i think i have it down, it floats away. i try to grasp at it again, but it's like i can SEE it floating away into the abyss. 

and i'm left there, gawking at the whiteboard thinking...

"WHAAaaa----?"

dear Crystine Tan,

if you read this,

i'mma get your sister

CRYSTABELLE TAN

to help me, ok?

i don't care if she doesn't know what she's talking about,

cause i sure as hell know even less

i feel like an empty coconut.

yes, coconut.

don't ask why -.- that was the first thing that popped into my head.

i rack my brains trying to find the darn answers, but they seem to be really good at hiding O.o 

i think my basics are messed up.

mental note to self: find someone to untangle the mess in my mind that is the basics of accounting. A.S.A.P!

DETERMINED MODE 

ON

!!! 

oh! so sick of it

i'm gonna study for my test now.

and as the title says, i'm oh! so sick of it...

i've finished two out of three chapters. but i think i'll have to go through them again. y'know, like a security check. sorta.

i have this thing where i memorise something and it tends to fade after twenty four hours. so you see why i'm a last minute person.

anyway, i'd better get back to work.

joy.

oh! so affectionate

i love you all


and by you all i mean the people who read my blog.


beware,
i tend to give
many random
doodle hugs






DOODLE HUGS FTW!

oh! so pretty

i feel pretty,

oh! so pretty,

i feel pretty and witty and

BRIGHTTTT!~

yeah, i wish.. -.- 

ok i know it's ridiculous, but i have this habit of browsing through photos of my friends in facebook, (especially if they're vain  photogenic. :) but hey, u pretty ladies out there (and surprisingly, some are men :S) embrace your beauty. i'm not saying cam-whoring is an epidemic which needs to be stopped NOW, like NOW NOW NOW.

no 

no 

no

don't mind me, i'm just ranting.

and i believe pretty girls rant to, am i right?

so don't go sharpen those kitty claws and come running after me, 

threatening to trample on me with your monster heels...

anyway, as i was saying

to me, pretty girls are like this...

fabulous, confident, strutting your stuff on the red carpet, blowing flawless kisses at the paparazzi kinda thing

and in my mind, i'm like this

small... insignificant... 

awkward

NOT GOOD AT TAKING PHOTOS

and after going through HUNDREDS of photos that look AMAZING, my confidence level drops to an all time low. But we've all felt like that. i'm sure of it. we're human, after all, we're a jealous species. 

and sometimes it just makes me wonder

how in the world 

can someone upload over a hundred photos

of nothing but themselves?

and sometimes, they LIKE their own vain photos

O.o

and i thought liking your own status was wrong

it's not like it's a group picture and you LIKE it cause of the memories and stuff. unless you had life changing memories taking pictures of yourself... O.o

and as i've said before

i mentally throw darts at pretty people

so watch out!

i'mma get you!

in my mind ;)

oh! so fruity

well well, it's almost time to bid adieu to my holidays...

we just went to the grocery store and popped into the organic shop while we were there. my mum bought some cherries, and they were DELICIOUS~

the skin was tough, and rubbery, but the whole cherry exploded in my mouth as soon as i bit down on it. it was a like... a tsunami of cherry juice. yum!

this bag of cherries weren't what closed my holidays oh! so epically.

no, it was but this ONE little cherry.

i feel like mother nature slapped me across the face

what a way to end my holidays

oh! so procrastinate

holidays are coming to a close.

BOO FRIKKIN HOO!

and to top it all off, i have a test on wednesday. i've ALMOST finished one chapter. out of three. but hey, progress IS progress. i shall make a to-do list to keep myself in check...

I HAVE TO...

1. clean my room
2. study for my test
3. get someone to help me in my accounts. 
4. get that someone to convince me that even if i'm a QS, i STILL have to study accounts.
5. clean my room
6. update my blog
7. pamper the cat
8. keep track of time
9. organize college work stuff and finish assignments
10. clean my room

there, that ought to do it.

ok, i'll challenge myself.

by the end of this week, 

i must finish at least half of those things.

yes...

and i musn't get distracted...

no..

not distracted at all

oh look, birdie outside my window..

oh! so happy

we just watched ourselves prance about on stage! yes, i'm talking about the video my dad took of us doing Iolanthe; the peer and the peri. we were awesome, stupendous, amazing, wonderful, marvelous, astounding...

ok, i think i've made my point.

we were good. period.

and even if there were some little bugs here and there, i think we pulled it all together. and even if the audience didn't laugh at our on stage jokes, WE sure as hell laughed! i think my neighbours are lying in bed thinking

"what in the world is wrong with them?"

we were howling with laughter, literally rolling on the floor laughing our asses off.

even my dad was chuckling away in his arm chair!

friends like these make me feel so warm inside. surrounded by a sureness that they'll never leave me. and even if we do get on each other's nerves, we'll be able to forgive. and continue being friends. i feel like my eyes are finally open. like my heart is about to burst out of my ribcage, like my feet are going to leave the ground... i've never felt so happy and free. like a baby bird taking its first flight. 

i love you guys so much! i want to stay friends forever. 

finally, i feel like there's support.. real support. unfaltering support. 

why am i speaking this way?

because i'm

OH! SO HAPPY

oh! so feline

this is a mainecoon...

my friend atikah has one... 

it is SO ADORABLE

i want one too! D:

oh! so dramatic

my old blog has been abandoned... for the umpteenth time, actually. what can i say, teens are fickle. we like change. we embrace it. ok, fine, some of us don't, but still.

i think i mentioned somewhere in my old blog.. ok fine, i admit... blogS that i would stick to it. well the fake people sending me chats annoyed me and the large masses of people visiting my blog only did so to view pictures of... dudes... yea, i did a whole "my list of the hottest guys on the planet" thing. so the plasticity of it all got the best of me. everything was too fake. 

so voila! here i am again. 

i hope i get at least a FEW readers. maybe NONE would be better than fake ones. oh woe is me. 

i've decided it's time to start anew. 

nothing spells "a new start" than starting a new blog, aye? 

and so, for the gabazillionth time, i'll tell you a little about me...ok, ok, i won't bore you to death this time. i'll keep it short and simple.

1. i hate pink
2. i don't take many photos of myself
3. i mentally throw darts at pretty people (but hey, who doesn't ;) )
4. i'm a cat person (and there goes half my readers)
5. i'm not a natural blogger, as in, it's hard for me to put things into words. 
6. you might get bored of my blog. 
7. if you're my friend, i'll bug you to read my blog
8. i'm a doodler
9. i daydream very often
10. mum, if you find this blog like you found the others, don't bug me about it... and i love you mommy :)