exams

ah, exams...

the refreshing kick start to a much needed break after every semester of nearly everything. whether you're in school, college, uni... the end of exams spells the end of a semester.. we all know what that means ;)

HOLIDAYS!!

and i for one can't WAIT for my holidays to start.

but then again my exams are yet to begin.

and here's the toughest part...

STUDYING FOR YOUR EXAMS

here are a couple tips i picked up:

1. study at least four days before your exam. 
2. recite everything you've studied as often as possible (so that it sticks in your mind)
3. it helps to talk to yourself when you study
4. take a break at the end of almost every chapter (not including the unbelievably short ones)
5. remember to come back to study after the break
6. pace yourself!
7. if you're stuck on a topic that doesn't seem to sink in, skip it and move on. better to cover more ground.
8. if you're getting two things (e.g. subtopics, chapters, advantages-disadvantages, etc.) mixed up, try learning one in one room, and the other in ANOTHER room. it works for me :)
9. studies show that if you walk around, it'll be easier for you to memorize stuff
10. never give up!

it's not that hard, y'know. studying i mean. it's just input-ing some information into that big empty brain of yours and working at it to keep it there. that's all ;) 

it may be harder than it sounds, but trust me.. with some elbow grease, you'll be memorizing stuff in a SNAP! 

grow up, slim down

reading back on my blog, reflecting on my life, i've realized.

i have to grow up.

truth is, i'm a kid at heart. a big one. i don't phrase my sentences "sophisticatedly", i dress so childishly, i even sound childish.

i'm somewhat ashamed of what i am. Seeing everyone blossom into such beautiful young adults makes me feel. sort of. left behind?

it's not that i haven't tried growing up. i mean, i've definitely tried dressing up, and talking monotonously  maturely. and acting less like a big goof. but it just didn't feel right. i didn't feel... me. i felt like i morphed into this whole other person, like a wax shell engulfed my entire being. like all the sounds i'm hearing were heard with different ears. all sights seen with different eyes. all words spoken with different lips.

i hate feeling like that. and people tell me to "grow up". to be a "big girl now". sometimes, they don't even have to say anything. the exude this totally obvious  vibe and it is utterly unsettling. it radiates through my entire being, my mind goes into a spin. i feel like i have to jump into a time machine and come back as a totally older "me" just to fit in.

well, in my defense:

• i love wearing elastic shorts. they make my tummy feel like its being hugged.
• i love eating junk food. who doesn't?
• i know my blubbery tummy is a "problem" and i should exercise more, but hey. i'm trying okay?
• i know i've gained a few pounds, but... i'm fat, you're ugly. and i can diet.

am i fat?
my BMI seems fine
i weigh 54 kilos. that's only 4 kilos gained.
i'm definitely taller than 160 centimetres.
and
... my dresses fit better now, actually.

doesn't my height

and my pale skin

make up for my "fatness"?

looks like

it's back to

the gym.